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I took this meme from Kathryn so...
Ok, I'm not a Jean Claude fan... I wish there was a Viggo (Aragorn) picture instead. Sigh. If I couldn't have a bad boy, action film hunk isn't that bad.
I've been up most of the night feeling like crap. I can't sleep and I am currently doing a load of dishes in the dishwasher and will probably clean my kitchen. I'm also watching one of my favorite anime series "Fruits Basket" Note the layout of my LJ. Yep that's it.
I'm trying to keep busy and I'm hoping that I can at least write something. I've been having trouble lately and it's usually because my emotions get tied into my ability to write. If I'm feeling low, the words don't come as easily to me and I struggle to find my muse. She doesn't like me depressed, so when I am she takes off for parts unknown until I feel better again.
Hopefully I'll start to feel better soon. I have posts to write for the RPG I'm involved in and also I want to finish writing my next chapter for "The Reason".
This reminds me of when I quit Wizard Tales. I was so upset and hurt and mad all at the same time. It took me months to finally get the urge to write again. Months! I almost gave up writing all together, but I have some wonderful friends who encouraged me to continue writing; Sally, Michelle and Lourdes.
That was also around the time my mother had gotten breast cancer and was in chemotherapy and radiation. That was a really scary time for me. My mom has always been there for me, she raised my sister and I by herself after she and my father got divorced. She worked three jobs once to make sure we had a roof over our heads, food on the table and clothes to wear. So when she was diagnosed with cancer, it felt like my world stopped.
That's pretty selfish of me though. My best friend, Lara, lost her mother to cancer 4 years ago. Irene was like my second mother and she was alive to see her first grandchild born. Then Lara's father, Leo, passed away 6 months after her second child, August was born. I've been lucky that my mother was pronounced cancer free as was able to make a full recovery.
It's funny, but I remember my mom fretting about losing her hair. I told her not to worry, if she did, I'd shave my head and we could wear wigs together. She laughed at that and it made me feel good to hear her laugh when she was feeling so sick.
And here I am feeling sorry for myself over some stupid thing that happened over my hobby.
I enjoy writing. I love to write. To create something and breathe life into it... that makes me happy. Even though I write fan fiction and post for an RPG, I make it my own with my words and thoughts.
So, I'm actually a lucky person. I've met some awesome people through my writing... and I've met some real jerks. But you know what? It doesn't matter anymore. I love to write. If someday I can make a living out of it, well that would be nice. If not, I have my hobby.
I want to thank my friends old and new. Sally, Michelle and Lourdes and my new ones; Greta, Dianne, Melinda, JP, Michelle aka Billie Bowtruckle and Kathryn. You guys rock! And you're there when I need a shoulder to lean on. Always. Thank you so much.
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Ok, I'm not a Jean Claude fan... I wish there was a Viggo (Aragorn) picture instead. Sigh. If I couldn't have a bad boy, action film hunk isn't that bad.
I've been up most of the night feeling like crap. I can't sleep and I am currently doing a load of dishes in the dishwasher and will probably clean my kitchen. I'm also watching one of my favorite anime series "Fruits Basket" Note the layout of my LJ. Yep that's it.
I'm trying to keep busy and I'm hoping that I can at least write something. I've been having trouble lately and it's usually because my emotions get tied into my ability to write. If I'm feeling low, the words don't come as easily to me and I struggle to find my muse. She doesn't like me depressed, so when I am she takes off for parts unknown until I feel better again.
Hopefully I'll start to feel better soon. I have posts to write for the RPG I'm involved in and also I want to finish writing my next chapter for "The Reason".
This reminds me of when I quit Wizard Tales. I was so upset and hurt and mad all at the same time. It took me months to finally get the urge to write again. Months! I almost gave up writing all together, but I have some wonderful friends who encouraged me to continue writing; Sally, Michelle and Lourdes.
That was also around the time my mother had gotten breast cancer and was in chemotherapy and radiation. That was a really scary time for me. My mom has always been there for me, she raised my sister and I by herself after she and my father got divorced. She worked three jobs once to make sure we had a roof over our heads, food on the table and clothes to wear. So when she was diagnosed with cancer, it felt like my world stopped.
That's pretty selfish of me though. My best friend, Lara, lost her mother to cancer 4 years ago. Irene was like my second mother and she was alive to see her first grandchild born. Then Lara's father, Leo, passed away 6 months after her second child, August was born. I've been lucky that my mother was pronounced cancer free as was able to make a full recovery.
It's funny, but I remember my mom fretting about losing her hair. I told her not to worry, if she did, I'd shave my head and we could wear wigs together. She laughed at that and it made me feel good to hear her laugh when she was feeling so sick.
And here I am feeling sorry for myself over some stupid thing that happened over my hobby.
I enjoy writing. I love to write. To create something and breathe life into it... that makes me happy. Even though I write fan fiction and post for an RPG, I make it my own with my words and thoughts.
So, I'm actually a lucky person. I've met some awesome people through my writing... and I've met some real jerks. But you know what? It doesn't matter anymore. I love to write. If someday I can make a living out of it, well that would be nice. If not, I have my hobby.
I want to thank my friends old and new. Sally, Michelle and Lourdes and my new ones; Greta, Dianne, Melinda, JP, Michelle aka Billie Bowtruckle and Kathryn. You guys rock! And you're there when I need a shoulder to lean on. Always. Thank you so much.